Today I took my first baby steps toward the Wonderful World of Disney. Or course because it was baby steps I only went to the "Marketplace" at Downtown Disney. It took me a few minutes to control my stomach and tears. I stayed in my car and texted Rhiannon and Sybil, then became calm enough to make the walk over to the big Disney store. I walked in, then walked out and went to Mickey's Pantry instead. There I shopped for my remodeled kitchen. It was a strange feeling being there. Sadness instead of the joy I use to feel. It just wasn't the "Happiest place on earth" anymore. I really thought that maybe one day I could take my M and M's to WDW. Now.....I know I will not be doing that. I think I will continue my shopping on line and maybe pick a different place to take M and M here in south Florida. I like the memories I have of taking Sammy to WDW much better than any new memories we could make there.
It doesn't get any easier....we just get better at it. (sometimes) God is good!
