When you lose a child you miss everything about your child, even the tedious things and the "unpleasant" things. What I thought at the times was unpleasant, now I would love to be doing. Sammy was in diapers all of his 15 years and I would love to be changing diapers right now. I remember after every change how I would kiss his belly and Sammy would always pat it and say "Paw Paw". This was to tell me his belly was just like his Grandpa Don's. Sammy also like to dump his toys and markers. Picking up toys and markers.............how wonderful that sounds! And to have a little foot in my face or arm slung over my neck while trying to sleep......priceless! So many things to miss.

It doesn't get any easier, you just get better at it. God is Good.